STAGES OF THE SPIRAL

Hallo, 

Today I will be writing about the different stages that compose the trip through the downward spiral. Many of us have entered the spiral sometime in our lives. Most of us that did usually don't leave it. The spiral is the process that occurs within the individual's perception of self. This whole journey might be triggered by social interactions, misfortunes, wrong doings, etc... Understanding the spiral might interest any individual that is on his downwards trip. 

STAGE 1: DENIAL

The first stage of the spiral consists of doubt and denial. Some sort of event or intrusive thought (as meaningless as they can be) will result in a feeling of disconnect with our current state and a certain degree of sadness occurs. At this stage, most individuals manage to leave the spiral and proceed. They usually are able to just shake off the numbness since life seems to not be affected. In the other hand, for some select few individuals, life starts repeating these little unnerving events on a daily basis. The feelings of discomfort, doubt, denial and melancholy start to feel normal although unnerving. Meaningless things/mistakes start having consequences, the discomfort ( as little as it may seem ) won't leave you. The world starts getting greyer and you begin your journey. 

STAGE 2: IMPULSIVE ATTITUDE

At this stage it is common to feel nervosism and boredom at the same time. These very opposite emotions result in less consideration and thinking before committing certain acts. The loss of consciousness regarding choices is usually the main driving factor. The mind is just too stressed and intrigued, the individual won't think much of the many long-term consequences of his acts. Examples of this are the tendency for certain wreckless behaviours, compulsive shopping, and/or eating massive amounts of food without acknowledging it. 

STAGE 3: LACK OF MOTIVATION

This stage refers to the moment when the individual stops feeling motivated to keep up with certain everyday tasks, such as work, school, studying, etc.. It may be perceived as procrastination, but in the spiral it doesn't consist of avoiding shores. The individual loses interest and care regarding said tasks, he feels no hurry or wory to get his life on track. 

STAGE 4: LOSS OF PERSONAL MOTIVATION OR SELF

This is a very interesting part of the spiral. At this point, the individual loses interest and motivation to keep up with activities that previously provided him joy. This stage is peculiar, we witness a human losing the will to do what he enjoys doing, to abdicate from something and not feel either positive or negative emotions towards it.

STAGE 5: DISCONNECT WITH IDENTITY/PERSONALITY/ LOBOTOMY

Now things get personal. The realization of the previous effects of the spiral starts taking over. Somehow it doesn't cause much pain. The individual is indifferent. He realizes that all he previously considered part of his personality is just material, he realizes there is no substance to him. He can't see a link between his current self and his previous self anymore. He is nothing but a conjunction of chemical reactions, Pushed around by his emotions, we witness a transformation. We witness one of the creations of the spiral. At this point, some individuals are completely changed. They use this new identity, it powers them do move forward, but they're up for no good. In a similar fashion to one of a lobotmy the invidual experiences apathy as if there was a certain degree of severing of the connections in the brain's prefrontal cortex.

STAGE 6: LOSS OF BASIC VITAL ACTS

At this point is usually when there is no coming back. If you reach this point you and the spiral are just one. Some can come back, but that requires effort and gaining what the spiral took from you. At this point the melancholy and numbness have completely taken over. The individual isn't just not doing his tasks, doing hobbies, etc.. At this point, it is common to avoid many things such as (but not limited to):

• self care/hygiene
• mantaining a diet
• social interactions with loved ones

STAGE 7: UNDERGROUND LEVEL

This is the last stage of the spiral. This is the life he knows, this si the life he'll have.This stage consists of death. Some prefer to wait 'til the spiral itself ends them, others do it themselves. Throughout this stage, the individual understands that all he thought he was is not real. He sees he effects of the spiral, he sees his own creation, after all it's his life and nobodyelse's. He is rot, and as most know from science class, there's no reverse chemical reaction for rotting. He contemplates suicide, there's no substance to grip on to. Regardless of the chosen method, everyone will eventually reach the end of the spiral.