One or two days ago I realized something. I will obviously not keep this blog after high school ends. My online presence will be immortalized as an eternal teen. I created it with the purpose of letting out my stupid teen angst in the form of words. Nobody will give a fuck a about my future. I will eventually either join the mass of futile adults or vanish. Both of those endings don't have a place here. At least not with me. I will have eventually to become boring, that's just how our world works. Responsibilities will make me drown. I don't see myself ever being able to fit into the way things are supposed to occur. I don't see myself having a future. It's just like my timeline is almost ending.
Maybe I will join the Marines and die.
Maybe I will study physics.
Maybe nothing will ever happen and I will join the irrelevant mass.
I will never have children, a least not in this reality, not with my brain.
I am not being negative at all. I am just being realistic. Imagine seeing this blog full of boring adult shit? I also don't wanna see myself full of adult shit. I don't want to abdicate of my individuality, which is something that'll have to happen in exchange of living. Rare are the ones that have the power of escaping the attractive force of this sick cycle. Oh, how much do I envy them. Those few ones can truly achieve nirvana.
So yeah, senior year is comin, next year it'll be Auf Wiedersehen
Das ist alles
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