the speed of time

Hallo internet,
Today I decided to talk about time.
I can hear the birds outside, a new day is baking.
But just some time ago I was planning to do some gaming, finishing the gameplay of Far Cry3. But now the sun is about to go up? Hmmm. Time is faster than light, not really, but why not. I don't like it. Time is buttery smooth and it slips through my fingers. Time is like a fluid that doesn't obey Newton's laws. The more you pay attention to it, it is slow. But when you finally have some fun, boom, passes as fast as an interstellar bitch. I can't believe I am not 5 years old anymore. Time did it's weird thing. Why aren't we 4th dimensional beings that can move accross time. We are enclosed to the present that is the past and the future. And our memory keeps getting shorter and shorter. Either I take too long doing basic tasks or the speed of time here on earth is getting higher.
None of this makes sense
Das ist alles

DENIAL || THE END IS NEAR

Hallo,
As of today, April 15th, I still have no idea of what I will do once everything ends. Once again I didn't make a good use of my time. Time is the most important resource and I waste it all. Throughout this years all I've been doing is acknowledge my mistakes but not correct them. It is dumb to waste my youth  like this.
 Wasted years, wasted life.
I failed to form social skills and connections, because I decided to isolate myself. I have gained the social conotation of "weird" or "freak" even though I am not that different from the mass. It feels painful to know it is my fault. To think that simple naive reactions to social discomfort have ruined me. Pathetic.
I made dumb rushed mistakes. I always regretted them and kept repeating them. That is the product of pure ignorance. It hurts to be this hypocritical. My laziness killed me. I didn't do anything relevant in the last 6 years of my life. Incompetence is my only occupation, I even managed to never be consistent with my hobbies.
There is nothing for me.
Auf wiedersehen

PEOPLE THAT ARE INCAPABLE OF EATING LIKE A HOMO SAPIENS

Hallo. 

As of recently I've been wondering how will I be ever able to live with anyone if all humans seem to eat like fucking savages. There's no need to fucking bite your cutlery, besides not being good for your teeth, it is just gross. No god damn need to groan like a damned monkey when eating. I can't believe that people make such animalistic noises when chewing. Is it really necessary to slurp that much and make such a loud fucking noise.  If it depended on me, it should be obligatory for people to eat like proper members of society. How can anyone not be ashamed of their whole existence when they are in public and dare to eat like fucking subhuman scum. I can understand the people that make noise when eating crunchy foods such as potato chips, Doritos and such, it's unavoidable, but you still don't need to shove them in your mouth like you've never seen food in your entire life, or literally breath like a cave monstruosity. People that breath their food, and yes, I meant breath, are gross. And don't tell me it's cause you need to breathe. You breath after you finish chewing, instead of just continuously shoving food in your mouth like a fucking pig.  I wish death upon those who dare to eat with their god damned mouths opened. This people don't seem to understand how to use cutlery as well. They always seem to treat it as a fucking drumset. Out of this, what annoys me the much, is that all the people that seem to have no notion of what proper manners are, are usually the same people that come from a very wealthy background, that claim they are fancy and somehow superior. Besides this gross people, I also despise the retards that think that it is normal to leave someone else's kitchen and room all dirty. All this mentally challenged mongoloids are like " but maaan, I'm so high ". And so what you're high, I've been high and i didn't feel like spreading butter all over the damn table, finish all the food, smell like fucking shit, fuck up the while damn house. All they are is fucking bubonic plague infested rats. And worse are the mothers that fail to educate their children, and let them grow to be garbage. How can any mother be proud of a kid that looks like a medieval peasant when they eat. It's just gross. And anyone that takes part on this process of degrading societal norms, please shoot yourself, do anyone a favor, shoot your family as well because your whole genetic pool is disgusting and should be drowned on zyklon-b. 

I don't think that there is anything to be added

How do you imagine your death?

Death, the only thing that is promised to everyone. The only right that’s granted for all folk. The inevitable, no escape. Some of us fear it, others long for it. Having this said, some of us just wait for it, others have some requests and little tweaks to the way they want to leave the physical world. My death is something that I debate a lot about. I don’t fear my physical death. That’s the easiest one to take care of, as long as my plans are followed meticulously. And even though it is the easiest, it is still the object of inspection for tonight’s post. 

I wonder if I am the only one, but I just can’t avoid imagining every aspect of my life as a movie, sadly a very boring one. I don’t trust mother nature to pull the plug on me. I am the one that’ll be doing the dirty deed. A man does what he gotta do. I just feel like I can’t waste the opportunity of my death. I mean, it’s a onetime event eh? I just imagine it being full of symbolism things. I will probably have some music in the background playing. The meaning that I intend to give to my suicide is probably the hardest choice ever. As bad as the movie has been, at least I want its grand finale to be Tarantino directed. What will I leave for everyone? What is the message I am trying to give when the time comes? With the pull of a trigger I’ll be gone, so it is important that my intentions are perceived correctly. I don’t want people to look at me as sad boy victim of today’s society. I don’t really want anyone to look at me besides the way things are: a dude that knew when it was time to leave. I hope my life is looked upon just as regular life, because that’s what it is: a damn generic monotone line, that only spiked before flat lining. But that’s okay. Although the purpose is to vanish, I hope it’s consequences stain the carpet of society forever. Don’t know. The script needs a little more drama, a plot twist, still can’t see it. What is the lead up to the main event? All the epiphanies that I’ve had will one day sum up. I just know that they will. 

What will be the soundtrack? Will Bernadette Carrol sing with me for my debut? Or will Beethoven press the trigger with me? Should I give a mix tape to a possible audience? Hard choice.

Should I leave my water running? In the other hand, I think that the whole apartment (I say this as if it doesn’t consist of just a room with a fucking midget bathroom) should be neatly tidy. Next to me I will leave everything of value, some cds, books, hard drives,  maybe a note ( apologizing for the mess and inflicted pain ), and , of course, a canvas on my back. After all, we are making art!

For now I should be going, time never stops, sadly. Life’s looking bright over here.

FUF SCHOOL IS ASS || BUNCH OF VAPOWARVE

Hallo fuckers,
school is just fucking retarded and overflooded with twats
so there you go:

VAPORWAVE RADIO. https://plaza.one/

C O O L V A P O R S H I T O N Y O U T U B E:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ET6657PH9gQ
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1hJKhiew2O0
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o9zZ4Gj75xs ( this one is superb )
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xYQrPsyu-1s
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XDpoBc8t6gE
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I-ulehcwYf8
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RQxDM2K-hd0 (THEM FEELZ )
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oF9yHO-UUws (OOOO )
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aQkPcPqTq4M (c l i c h e t h o t s )
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ADp9P3p85w0
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8GW6sLrK40k ( n o s t a l g i c )
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KI_WVEOgho0 (d e a th )

Hope you guys like this,
Das ist alles.

WEEKLY HATE #02 - GOD IS DEAD

Hallo. Today I'll be discussing one of the coolest fairytales of all time, you probably have heard about it, some people know the family friendly version but I preffer the original name its creators intended it to be called by: Big sky daddy burns thots kek.
I don't know about you, but I don't believe in sky daddy. For me it makes no sense. God as most religions portray him, is this guy/entity that knows everything, is responsible for your fate, judges you because of the "sins" you have committed, decides whether you burn in hell or stay all day drying your skin in heaven.What bothers me is that most people don't want to accept that religion as it currently works is something full man made, all the sacred books were written by men. Christianity derivated from Judaism, Basically a guy felt like being a jew was a bummer cause they have a fuckton of strict laws so he made a new religion. I can respect and kinda understand people that believe in a creator force, not a sky sugar hoe. If you trully believe any dumb ass tale written on a religious book there's a high chance you suffer from down syndrome.
What makes humans humans is their inability to accept that there is nothing has an actual purpose . To understand that we simply exist and it is up to us to give ourselfs meaning is to rise above from our species 

But oh well...

what does it mean to be a god?
As my eyes see it, being a god is being someone that holds knowledge, capacity of solving issues peacefully, If you can convince people about things just using your personality, you're practically a god. Being a god implies that you can decipher the way our society works and functions, which in my opinion as of right now, it ain't complicated. Morals and religion are the most subjective things of all time. What if we never ever followed the right god and the correct god has been seeing us do memes and nibba is ready to murder every fucking one.

To be god is take control over the weak minded sub human waste that dare to walk on the street. To be god is to manipulate and lure, persuade others to do what you so desire.

I want to be god 

Das ist alles 
 

WEEKLY HATE #01 - retards in PE class

from now on, every single monday I will be dedicating a blog post to something I particularly hate.

THIS WEEKS' WEEKLY HATE GOES FOR: retards in PE class!

Every single PE class I have to deal with dipshits that have been dipped in autism. I  just can't understand how do this people lose their shit over a dumb sports game for PE FRIGGIN CLASS! We're playing volleyball and I drop the ball. Everyone starts shouting at me and going full retarded like some pre historic creatures. But if this retards were in a group work with me for a physics project and I got mad at them for not knowing the laws of thermodynamics they wouldn't give a fuck. People always treat me like shit during pe, screaming like animals at me for no reason other than I am not a god damn athelete. But then all of those lifeless slaves of the ball want my help during tests and anything that actually requires a functioning brain or more than 1 brain cell. What really makes me uncomfortable is the fact that this retards that scream about stuff like this are most part of the fucking people in the whole school. Does that mean that most of the human population is more bothered about someone's athletic skills and build amthan their intellect and academic efforts? If I screamed with this mentally challenged abortions during any project the way they scream with me about sports they would be like " You have to understand that there are people that are smarter than other people " Well, THEN YOU HAVE TO GET THAG NOT EVERYONE'S LIFE REVOLVES AROUND RUNNING AFTER A BALL YOU FUCKING MORONS.

I am not that bad at sports, I have an actual coordination issue and eyesight problem that makes me bad at many sports. But this retards can't take physical disadvantages like mine into consideration, while I have to considerate their lack of brain cells and their brain that is as big as god damn peanut. I will always absolutely hate this. Fuck everyone for being such apathetic puppets.

Das ist alles.