Life on Halt

Hallo,
Europe is fucked. China is lying, and nobody takes things seriously. I'm angry that european countries take bullshit from china. Bitch please, tehy didn't even let Taiwan partake in the WHO. The chinese government looks like it is ruled by little teenage girls that solely care about looks and photo shopping their instagram pictures. It's like they're kids, afraid of telling the world the truth because the ccp would look bad( as if it wasn't obvious anyways). But china holds lots of economical power so everyone sucks its cock. Because of the way china mislead everybody preparation wasn't done. Taiwan began its preparation as soon as the first warning was out from Wuhan. I seriously beg for the answer of this question from the government of any country, what is worse, hurting the economy a bit with early drastic precaution or hurting your economy so bad the whole world goes into recession due to major lockdowns for months and months? In the end, the economy will be more hurt, because we won't be indulging in any shopping if we are locked for months, meanwhile, if precaution was taken since the beginning we could be just fine by now.
I can't believe this is 2020. The only positive thing about this is that this virus is a major boomer remover! So all the dumb cunts that still think that working a part time job is enough to pay for a house, college tuition and supporting a family can go and cough on each other in a dedicated pit. I am not sorry for the ignorant boomers, finally europe will get rid of its "aging population" issue, in the aftermath europe will be very youthful!

Boomers and corona

Hallo retards.
It is time I go back to my element, ranting about older people. As everyone probably knows, the world is in a pandemic situation when it comes to the corona virus. Europe is being eaten alive lmao. I am actually concerned about the virus, because as edgy as I want to be, I know people that I don't want to lose (unlike some godlike creatures I've interacted with).
Last week, during lunchtime I mentioned that my family should pass by the pharmacy to stock up on masks and hand sanitizer. My grandma's reaction was fantastic. She said I was dumb and pathetic for thinking that those precautions were necessary. She said that the flu is way more dangerous, way more people die in the pool and we're not banning pools, 2% mortality rate is low so stop worrying. I must note, my grandma doesn't believe in evolution, or in artificial selection. She thinks that the fruit and vegetables on earth have always been this way, that we didn't shape them throughout time to be as juicy and as nutritious as possible. She thinks GMO's and artificial selection throughout the entirety of human existence are the exact same and doesn't want to believe in science whatsoever. She also thinks that lactose intolerance is bs (yeah I nearly puke all the time cause dairy is just so good for me mmmm). All that aside, she doesn't really understand that she is one of the main people that should be worried about the virus. Old people have very bad hygiene, in my opinion, cause "back in the old days we only took a shower per three days, and we didn't wash our hands cause real men make their immune system stronger by congesting every single possible decease!" They cough into their hands, instead of into their arms (i was always taught to cough and sneeze into the inner part of my arm, because in general we shouldn't spread our spit). They don't wash their food, and don't really take medical advice; they're always picking their nose and at their skin and then go and touch things without washing their hands; etc...
So let's imagine the following scenario:
I'm on my way to school, I usually have to hop on two different subway lines. One of the subway lines I take is connected to the airport. Someone comes back from italy. They cough, sneeze, or overall just spread their breath droplets on the subway's surface. Someone else touches the surface, and scratches their nose. That person has the virus now. The incubation period of the novel corona virus is more than 24 days. That person goes around, kisses their loved ones, their children, releases breath droplets into public transport, interacts with people at work. That person probably passed the virus to many people, and they won't know for a long time, due to the very long incubation time.
I feel like I need to rectify myself. I am not afraid of the virus for me, I take the necessary precautions, I do the best I can. But some people think they are superior, that a "little" virus won't do anything to them, things always happen to everyone but them, blah blah status quo, blah blah. So they don't take any precautions and keep being the unhygienic gross motherfuckers they are. Two days In my physics lab my teacher begged us to wash our hands before getting in class cause of the virus, and of course we did. Once again, when talking about this to my grandma she thought it idiotic. People act as if the unnecessary death of others is fine, just cause it's not them or their close ones. "It's only 2% of the population that is dying". People die all the time, why are people ok with the additional death of others? I can't grasp it. And unlike the flu our body isn't fully able to just get the rid of the virus. Covid-19 is a serious disease. Just cause you are not in danger it doesn't mean you get to deny science and  play god while you can.
That's all, honestly, fuck people that don't believe in science, up yours!

i actually age and didn't die at 16

Hallo, it's mab, mark, markus, Marco, whatever.
I'm currently 18. Ew, i know, gross. Just a while a go I was extremely edgy and determined to die (don't get me wrong I don't want to live) and all I cared about was grunge and 90s industrial rock. Now I am literally nobody. Nothing defines me anymore. I don't even try to enjoy the things that once made me happy.I don't believe in anything. I don't even do drugs or alcohol anymore, and yes, that's a negative. I just stay static. I don't know what happened to me but I have vanished. Nobody sees or notices me. Nobody ever did, but I realized I am nothing. I feel bad for nothing or for everything. And no matter how many positive conclusions I have I always forget everything, truth is, I can't focus or make memories, my brain just gave up on short term memory. I have no regret for my actions, I just wish time weren't so fast. Just that. I miss my friends, I miss how rotten and shitty my life used to be, and how it made me dream of a better future. How I was so mentally busy and didn't realize things would never be the same once I stepped out of school on the last day. I seriously don't understand myself. I want my head to not be so shaky. I wish I had kept my promises from the past and had posted all the time. Sorry. Nobody reads this, but I'm very sorry. I feel like I failed.

good bye uk!

If you told someone from like, 20 years ago that the uk would like the eu they'd say that's bs. But oh well, farewell britain! It has been a wild ride, too bad you never had the euro as your currency!

Happy new year of 2000!

Hallo internet!
How's it going?? I haven't been as present as I used to be. I know I said I'd stop posting here when i got into college but oof. I still have stuff to say so it only seems fair I say it. I could have done this whole blog in a much better manner. I could have posted regularly. I wish I had another year of high school so I could get more responsibility, since I spent the entirety of high school not doing anything and complaining.
The millennium, decade and year are over! Now we have a whole new universe to explore!!!! I am not so positive, and looking back into anything pains me deeply!! Oh well, I just wish I for once had the correct thoughts at the correct place and time. Hope we have fun in this new year.
Top be honest I couldn't care less about this human concept of time, I feel extremely disconnected from it and that probably plays a big part in why I suck at life. I don't know, it's not a question of "1999 went by so fucking fast I can't believe it's 2000 already!", it's more like, I don't feel time at all. It could be 2020 and I wouldn't feel a thing. I just overall feel extremely out. I've always been dissociated from everything but now it's sort of worse, last year I still felt some sort of "coming of doom" feeling regarding the new year and time still made some sort of sense. But now I have no actual clue. I don't think i am ready for any of this.

shit that annoys me || volume 1 || brain frozen old people

Hallo,
I decided to try and put some effort into this and at least write weekly. I really regret the way things have gone down with this projects.

So today I will begin this habit of talking in detail about shit that just makes me fume. I have moved back to my old neighborhood, and because of that I've had my fair share of dealing with old people, which is ok, people don't choose to get old, as much as we all would love to be young forever. But, I never noticed how dumb the older generations can be, and I mean extremely dumb. Let's divide my issues with older people into topics

1.How most people over 35 I've interacted with are fucking mental
 Most people are so deep in the idea that their generation is the best (there's no such thing as a best generation) that they fail to communicate and comprehend other generations. When people are around 35 they start realizing that they're not young anymore and they're heading towards their 40s. Till then they have this weird ass idea engraved on their head, they think they're so genial, so different, so quirky, so revolutionary, so much better because they had less during their childhood? Then this people start realizing that young people can also achieve things and they start getting angry, perhaps (when they were children) they weren't as successful or well informed as gen z kids are, which is okay. But these people can't accept that things change. They not only fail to accept the potential and success of younger people but they also fail to understand them.


2.Ignorance regarding technology and progress
 This one is fantastic, it really grinds my gears. Whether I'm talking to my nearly 40 y/o aunt or to my grandpa who is completely unable of using any technology because he simply thought "oh, that shit is not important, nobody is ever gonna use tech so I shouldn't learn" they never fail to surprise me. I think I'll bullet-point each specific incident that makes me question what happens on people's brains

• Being overly complicated: Sometimes various family members ask me shit. Sometimes they want to know something, sometimes they don't know how to use a certain thing (reset the router, lookup some random ass info) . Instead of simply looking up on their phones what they need to know regarding anything they decide to be extra complicated, they make weird choices, and when they finally beg you to do it for you they can't stop commenting on how you're doing it wrong while they don't have any idea of what is going on. In the end of helping them plugging the HDMI cable or attaching a jpeg to their email I just ask "Hey (random person) why don't you look this up on the internet? You could learn how to do it yourself and apply that knowledge to different situations?". They never ever do this, I don't get it. They assume I just magically know all of these but then proceed to criticize me for knowing stuff?? Why are they being so complicated? Choose a stance on the topic and stick with it unless you actually change your mind instead of floating around. They think we know stuff just because we are from the "new generation", we know stuff because we have curiosity. 
• Thinking that using tech is gonna kill you: Most part of old people are big ass hypocrites. I love watching Tarantino movies, not only are they very well written but they also have a fair share of violence and gore. To some of my older relatives, watching really violent movies or watching super violent sports (boxing matches, WWE, till death bullfighting matches, etc...) is totally okay. But playing a dumb FPS shooter game? No, that's gonna turn you into a school shooter, or any shooter per say. My favorite type of game is FPS games, yet I don't consider myself violent, at all. My grandma says that kids in america shoot up their school because they play cod, but all kids all over the damned world play cod and many more fps games, yet we don't see the wide spread of a school shooter culture. Old ass men beating each other to death because their soccer team rivalry? Ye know, it's just men. Boys playing fps shooter and having a general nice time? Oh boy, that's fucking cancerous and will damage the boys' minds they'll become killing machine lIkE tHe AmErIcAn KiDs!! Killing bulls good, pOlyStaTIonN aNd tHE Wii BAAAD
• Thinking the world doesn't need the internet or anything really: This one is just great, my grandma was pissed that we are"always" on our phones, back in her day they didn't have phones! And the god damned internet, it just turns kids into criminals we don't need such thing!!!! "If I can live without the internet it means we don't really need it!" Hate breaking it to you grandma but all the efficiency of the 21st century is based on the convenience of the internet. Fast news that enable the ability of warning people and preventing disasters, managing bank accounts, efficient systems that enable fast services (every major thing, from hospitals to retail).
• TV vs Online Content:Old people think that watching youtube videos is worse than watching TV. Both platforms have had good content and bad content, the difference is what you can do about it. Old people just stay there and randomly watch whatever the fuck Tv feeds them, and that includes the totally washed down biased content that ends up brain washing their brains. Because of a dumb tv show my grandma believes I will become a killer because of video games. Meanwhile, on streaming services you can choose what to watch, on youtube you can support actual talented independent artists and individuals and see them grow! My family thinks you can legally buy guns at a gunshop if you are 13 in the U.S.
• Telling foreigners to learn the country's language but refusing to learn languages like English: This one is always amazing, people get so angry at foreigner's for not speaking our language perfectly, but do they speak any other language other than their own? They fucking don't. Why do old people get worked about this? You don't speak the foreigner's languages either. They don't even speak English, so why are y'all so pissed at immigrants and foreigners lmao.

3.Generational differences throughout history
 Okay, this one will be hella far fetched. Although when boomers and people prior to that were my age they already had different mindsets and ideals than their contemporary old folks' ones there was some sort of similarity? The world keeps changing, ofc, but like, the 20th century was a crazy roller coaster. The way we live and interact with the world, in a contextual way changed so much? And lots of people think that the values they were taught are the best ones, regardless of change. So they refuse to keep up? I don't really know what my point is in this one. But like, in the medieval ages as rebellious as kids could be, older people and younger people kinda endured the same shit? The good ol days looked just like the good new days? So I doubt that old people could go around saying "IN MY DAY WE GOT THE PLAGUE!!!!" Like, people hate change, and that's why they all fall into this weird hypocritical cycle. People my age complain about 6 yo's liking fortnite or Minecraft. I seriously don't get it, fucks sake our gen liked club penguin and dumb shid like FriV flash games, Nintendo dogs n cats. I think old people get dumb because they are pretentious. We need to give value to younger intellects. I love talking to everyone, I love telling my older family members my ideas, and if I ever live to be old I want to learn with people that are younger than me.

This was fucking psychotic, I might edit this post later I have no god damned clue.

Dream Girl

I'm at the airport waiting in line
A very pretty girl is in front of me
She is tall
And her feet are tiny in comparison
She is by herself and carries a camper bag
Her headphones are plugged in
She has cute bangs and a suede pouch
She is so sweet
She is such a dream
Her hair is kinda strawberry blonde
It's very messy
Her perfume is very nice
Girls are so nice
Pizza socks
Her walk is funny
Cherry cola shirt
She has bracelets on her legs
She was watching dumbo
Editing pictures on her laptop
She wears socks that don't match
She has two seats just for herself because the lady next to her left
Her nose looks cute and little
It is a little bit red
She might have the flu
She sits by the window
And looks at the clouds, probably in other planet
I wonder what she will do, once she gets to Lisbon
Will she have more adventures? Maybe go to Spain
Or maybe she just came to Africa to do some volunteer help
Maybe her parents paid her the trip
Maybe she makes her life like that, gets a sponsorship and travels to exotic places
But she looks so young, she could be younger than me, she could be with me at school
I don't know but I can't help but look at this dream girl