online school or school in general does not work for me

Hallo
I genuinely can't bring myself to study. I know I will regret my behavior, but I honestly can't find any joy or interest in school, or anything in general. I'm extremely unmotivated and nothing captivates my brain. All I want is to stay awake at night so I don't deal with my family, dream and die. I hate sounding edgy but these feelings are genuine. I honestly suck...