One or two days ago I realized something. I will obviously not keep this blog after high school ends. My online presence will be immortalized as an eternal teen. I created it with the purpose of letting out my stupid teen angst in the form of words. Nobody will give a fuck a about my future. I will eventually either join the mass of futile adults or vanish. Both of those endings don't have a place here. At least not with me. I will have eventually to become boring, that's just how our world works. Responsibilities will make me drown. I don't see myself ever being able to fit into the way things are supposed to occur. I don't see myself having a future. It's just like my timeline is almost ending.
Maybe I will join the Marines and die.
Maybe I will study physics.
Maybe nothing will ever happen and I will join the irrelevant mass.
I will never have children, a least not in this reality, not with my brain.
I am not being negative at all. I am just being realistic. Imagine seeing this blog full of boring adult shit? I also don't wanna see myself full of adult shit. I don't want to abdicate of my individuality, which is something that'll have to happen in exchange of living. Rare are the ones that have the power of escaping the attractive force of this sick cycle. Oh, how much do I envy them. Those few ones can truly achieve nirvana.
So yeah, senior year is comin, next year it'll be Auf Wiedersehen
Das ist alles
Wednesday, August 22, 2018
Tuesday, August 21, 2018
why do we give a fuck about generations ?
last saturday I was at thsi festival. I was waiting for the shuttle and there is this old guy, lying on the grass, looking like a 60's hippie. He was obviously head fucked. He was also complaining about "youngsters".
I don't know why, but this led me into thinking a little. After all, why do we give any flying fucks about generations? If we look at it, a generation always feels superior to the ones that came before them ( due to more modern knowledge ), and to the ones that came after ( because they feel wiser due to life experiences ). Old people love complaining about younger ones, rambling about how everything is easier now. But isn't that the god damn objective of evolution? For things to be easier and better? As humans we strive for perfection and knowledge, than how the fuck do you complain about us having better lives? That is your purpose! To help the following generations, by making a better world for them.
But instead, all we have is a group of stupid ass baby boomers complaining about gen-z and millennials. All they do is complain about the stuff we like, and not actually helping. They see us as total addicts. But a thing these retards can't get straight, is the fact that this is the way our world is. They always have something to criticize. I bet that when videogames started being popular they said they would be bad for their kids. When computers came up I bet they would also complain. They are never satisfied, their goal is to annihilate evolution and change. I get it, change sucks. You like the way things used to be in your good ol days. But, adults and other people need to comprehend that humans are an evolutionary species that is defined by their ability of changing.
Other way of putting this issue, if you don't like the way we behave when it comes to our habits and ways of living, maybe you gotta remember the fact that we are living in the world you creted.
*lmao, literally right now my aunt complained about me being online, then she made me close my in mid post and made go eat a god damned yogurt. Thing is, I was not feeling so well, and now I am apparently obligated to eat, and I will probably throw up. And if I told them that I was not feeling so well, they would probably ask " than why are you on the pc ?. Apparently science is something adults have given up, because I don't see the correlation between my stomachache and a LED screen. If this was the nintendo 3d virtual boy, I could actually get their complaints, but it is not. And there is also a shitload of hypocrisy present in this act. Many times I see my relatives waking up and going to the computer. But oh well, lmao, apparently I am any different.*
What is the big ass issue with us being on our computers or phones? We are not missing out that much in life. It's not like every other teenager isn't doing the same. Actually, this is how our life is. Of course we should do some stuff, but at least when i look at gen-z, I see that they usually like doing other stuff besides being online, and actually use our advanced tech as more of a tool to achieve success. But guess the fuck what? Older people love to stay ignorant and generalize everybody or just throw random ad hominems at us like they are some time of youtube comments loser. They think they are the wisest. But they are not, because in fact, nobody is. It's a fucking dogma and old people love to ignore it.
There is other funny thing about older generations. They remind me of SJWS in a certain way. They are always scattering through our ways of living, just to find something to complain about. Instead of giving us the fucking help we ask for, they say they never had help back in the ol days. So why the fuck not help us and try to make our fucking shitty world a little better? Grumpy old retards are a big part of why this world sucks. ( They are also the kind of people that don't believe in global warming, but this is not totally related to my argument ).
But instead, all we have is a group of stupid ass baby boomers complaining about gen-z and millennials. All they do is complain about the stuff we like, and not actually helping. They see us as total addicts. But a thing these retards can't get straight, is the fact that this is the way our world is. They always have something to criticize. I bet that when videogames started being popular they said they would be bad for their kids. When computers came up I bet they would also complain. They are never satisfied, their goal is to annihilate evolution and change. I get it, change sucks. You like the way things used to be in your good ol days. But, adults and other people need to comprehend that humans are an evolutionary species that is defined by their ability of changing.
Other way of putting this issue, if you don't like the way we behave when it comes to our habits and ways of living, maybe you gotta remember the fact that we are living in the world you creted.
*lmao, literally right now my aunt complained about me being online, then she made me close my in mid post and made go eat a god damned yogurt. Thing is, I was not feeling so well, and now I am apparently obligated to eat, and I will probably throw up. And if I told them that I was not feeling so well, they would probably ask " than why are you on the pc ?. Apparently science is something adults have given up, because I don't see the correlation between my stomachache and a LED screen. If this was the nintendo 3d virtual boy, I could actually get their complaints, but it is not. And there is also a shitload of hypocrisy present in this act. Many times I see my relatives waking up and going to the computer. But oh well, lmao, apparently I am any different.*
What is the big ass issue with us being on our computers or phones? We are not missing out that much in life. It's not like every other teenager isn't doing the same. Actually, this is how our life is. Of course we should do some stuff, but at least when i look at gen-z, I see that they usually like doing other stuff besides being online, and actually use our advanced tech as more of a tool to achieve success. But guess the fuck what? Older people love to stay ignorant and generalize everybody or just throw random ad hominems at us like they are some time of youtube comments loser. They think they are the wisest. But they are not, because in fact, nobody is. It's a fucking dogma and old people love to ignore it.
There is other funny thing about older generations. They remind me of SJWS in a certain way. They are always scattering through our ways of living, just to find something to complain about. Instead of giving us the fucking help we ask for, they say they never had help back in the ol days. So why the fuck not help us and try to make our fucking shitty world a little better? Grumpy old retards are a big part of why this world sucks. ( They are also the kind of people that don't believe in global warming, but this is not totally related to my argument ).
WE ARE THE RESULT OF YOUR BAD LIFE CHOICES, WE ARE WHAT YOU CREATED. YOU CAN'T GET RID OF PIECES OF YOURSELVES. WE ARE THE FUTURE OF YOUR NATION. IT IS UP TO YOU TO PAY FOR YOUR MISTAKES
Friday, August 17, 2018
poetry is gay
POETRY IS GAY
well, sometimes not.
Most part of the times is some cliché shit. Others is just guys tryna get girls,or whores copyin stupid ass poetic quotes to post with their cleavage.
But sometimes poetry has an actual feeling behind it.
Sometimes it holds value to some hearts
Others, it is just there to cover some wounds.
It is there to turn little sobs into painful words
To let the world know about the pain.
Perhaps we are using it to keep ours demons inside.
Whatever the reason might be, it keeps our hearts in place, and makes us feel safe.
this shit fockin gay
well, sometimes not.
Most part of the times is some cliché shit. Others is just guys tryna get girls,or whores copyin stupid ass poetic quotes to post with their cleavage.
But sometimes poetry has an actual feeling behind it.
Sometimes it holds value to some hearts
Others, it is just there to cover some wounds.
It is there to turn little sobs into painful words
To let the world know about the pain.
Perhaps we are using it to keep ours demons inside.
Whatever the reason might be, it keeps our hearts in place, and makes us feel safe.
this shit fockin gay
Thursday, July 26, 2018
fucking anger
everything pisses the living shit out of me. every god damned thing makes me have the desire of setting everything on fire! I fucking hate every fucking living organisms!
Our world is so clogged with worthless people, people whose minds are so tiny they can't grasp the bare truth.
And it's sickening,
I can't handle myself.
I am not only a prisoner of this world but too a prisoner of my own mind. Nothing ever fucking stops, it never does I just fucking want to end everyone. I swear if I could I wouldn't think twice before blowing up our god damn stupid ass planet. I can't stand walking around in the middle of all this mind washed fucks, whose morals are fully influenced by every little stupid shit they see on the media. A stupid generation of offended little fuck shits. This ass wipes make me doubt my own fucking insanity. Nobody seems to have the damn ability to use their own fucking neurons.
Do you ever feel so much hate in your veins it becomes your fuel to do anything? All the feelings associated with hate, those the ones I feel. Long are the days when empathy was something I constantly felt. If this stupid place won't care for me, why would I fucking care either? And what can we do?
LAUGH
TAKE SELFIES
USE HASHTAGS
SMILE
NO, WE ARE WALKING A NEVER ENDING PATH FROM THAT WE CAN'T GO BACK! But you guys know what? WE FUCKING DESERVE THIS AS THE SCUM SPECIES WE ARE. We should all fucking disintegrate, including me! I too am a worthless human.
Das ist alles
Our world is so clogged with worthless people, people whose minds are so tiny they can't grasp the bare truth.
And it's sickening,
I can't handle myself.
I am not only a prisoner of this world but too a prisoner of my own mind. Nothing ever fucking stops, it never does I just fucking want to end everyone. I swear if I could I wouldn't think twice before blowing up our god damn stupid ass planet. I can't stand walking around in the middle of all this mind washed fucks, whose morals are fully influenced by every little stupid shit they see on the media. A stupid generation of offended little fuck shits. This ass wipes make me doubt my own fucking insanity. Nobody seems to have the damn ability to use their own fucking neurons.
Do you ever feel so much hate in your veins it becomes your fuel to do anything? All the feelings associated with hate, those the ones I feel. Long are the days when empathy was something I constantly felt. If this stupid place won't care for me, why would I fucking care either? And what can we do?
LAUGH
TAKE SELFIES
USE HASHTAGS
SMILE
NO, WE ARE WALKING A NEVER ENDING PATH FROM THAT WE CAN'T GO BACK! But you guys know what? WE FUCKING DESERVE THIS AS THE SCUM SPECIES WE ARE. We should all fucking disintegrate, including me! I too am a worthless human.
Das ist alles
Thursday, July 19, 2018
space
space.
we're in it.
some of us don't even put any thought into the wonders that the laws of physics have created. some of us spend our lives playing roblox. since i was a tiny annoying kid I always loved space. The idea that we could go out of our globe and explore other worlds was astonishing. As I grew i discovered that space exploration was scarier and more complicated than what I once thought. The possibility of dying while in the process of going to space is really high! Oxygen is scarce, pressure is almost nonexistent, the temperature is low, nobody can hear you. Basically everything including your spaceship can kill you. Even with that knowledge in hand, I still would love to go to space, specially because of how deadly it is. Knowing that a simple alteration in some properties of the ship, or a tiny malfunction might blow me up, it makes me admire that thought even more. I think that the idea of dying in space, being scattered through the vacuum where there is nobody to hear you, is what makes me so attracted to the subject. After all, we are so insignificant. When on earth, we fit quite nicely to this scale. But when in space, we truly understand that we are simply microscopic thingies when compared to the wholesomeness of the cosmos. We don't know what is out there, but we thrive to discover what lies within the void of our universe. Some of us don't, sometimes due to fear, or just simply because of pure ignorance!
Sometimes I like to think about the speed of light (299792458 meters per second, if you're american just google it on miles or some shit idgaf). The light that the sun irradiates takes around eight minutes to reach the earth's surface. So, if the sun were just to magically stop shining, we would only understand that 8 minutes after it happened. That makes me think. Telecommunications. They are based around light emissions. NASA wants to send humans to mars, but if we calculate it, the thought of being there is scary (ignoring all the dangers that space kindly offers to us).Why, you may ask. Here on earth we can use the internet to talk with each other, at a staggering speed! Skype, whatsapp, and other apps, we use them to speak and see each other , and we don't even notice the lag due to the short distance that the light that encodes our data has to go through. Now imagine that you successfully finished your trip to mars. You are now installed in your new artificially pressurized martian "home". You feel that now is the adequate time to communicate the people back on earth about your success. So you get to the communication station and speak. You would expect a human to respond something after a few seconds, but nothing comes through the speaker? You might think you are alone, that they left you there. Thing is, any type of data that is sent from mars will take around a minimum of 3 minutes to reach earth (you obtain this result by dividing the minimum distance between the earth and mars by the speed of light, and then divide it by 60). You can obtain the maximum and average lag times by getting the distances and repeating what I did. Imagine saying hello, and only getting an answer more than 3 minutes later. That's a current issue with space exploration on a human level. If for some reason our spacecraft exploded, or we had any issue that needed quick examination from ground control, they would only receive said data too late. Of course, this issue can be fixed, by finding something faster than light ( which would require adjustments to general relativity ). Quantum entanglement sounds like a nice solution, ( check this out:https://www.sciencealert.com/scientists-have-achieved-direct-counterfactual-quantum-communication-for-the-first-time ). This is endearing. To be honest I don't know. Das ist alles,
Mab
(i leave you to this cool image)
we're in it.
some of us don't even put any thought into the wonders that the laws of physics have created. some of us spend our lives playing roblox. since i was a tiny annoying kid I always loved space. The idea that we could go out of our globe and explore other worlds was astonishing. As I grew i discovered that space exploration was scarier and more complicated than what I once thought. The possibility of dying while in the process of going to space is really high! Oxygen is scarce, pressure is almost nonexistent, the temperature is low, nobody can hear you. Basically everything including your spaceship can kill you. Even with that knowledge in hand, I still would love to go to space, specially because of how deadly it is. Knowing that a simple alteration in some properties of the ship, or a tiny malfunction might blow me up, it makes me admire that thought even more. I think that the idea of dying in space, being scattered through the vacuum where there is nobody to hear you, is what makes me so attracted to the subject. After all, we are so insignificant. When on earth, we fit quite nicely to this scale. But when in space, we truly understand that we are simply microscopic thingies when compared to the wholesomeness of the cosmos. We don't know what is out there, but we thrive to discover what lies within the void of our universe. Some of us don't, sometimes due to fear, or just simply because of pure ignorance!
Sometimes I like to think about the speed of light (299792458 meters per second, if you're american just google it on miles or some shit idgaf). The light that the sun irradiates takes around eight minutes to reach the earth's surface. So, if the sun were just to magically stop shining, we would only understand that 8 minutes after it happened. That makes me think. Telecommunications. They are based around light emissions. NASA wants to send humans to mars, but if we calculate it, the thought of being there is scary (ignoring all the dangers that space kindly offers to us).Why, you may ask. Here on earth we can use the internet to talk with each other, at a staggering speed! Skype, whatsapp, and other apps, we use them to speak and see each other , and we don't even notice the lag due to the short distance that the light that encodes our data has to go through. Now imagine that you successfully finished your trip to mars. You are now installed in your new artificially pressurized martian "home". You feel that now is the adequate time to communicate the people back on earth about your success. So you get to the communication station and speak. You would expect a human to respond something after a few seconds, but nothing comes through the speaker? You might think you are alone, that they left you there. Thing is, any type of data that is sent from mars will take around a minimum of 3 minutes to reach earth (you obtain this result by dividing the minimum distance between the earth and mars by the speed of light, and then divide it by 60). You can obtain the maximum and average lag times by getting the distances and repeating what I did. Imagine saying hello, and only getting an answer more than 3 minutes later. That's a current issue with space exploration on a human level. If for some reason our spacecraft exploded, or we had any issue that needed quick examination from ground control, they would only receive said data too late. Of course, this issue can be fixed, by finding something faster than light ( which would require adjustments to general relativity ). Quantum entanglement sounds like a nice solution, ( check this out:https://www.sciencealert.com/scientists-have-achieved-direct-counterfactual-quantum-communication-for-the-first-time ). This is endearing. To be honest I don't know. Das ist alles,
Mab
(i leave you to this cool image)
Saturday, May 19, 2018
STUPID KID DAVID
Guten abend dipshits,
Don't you fucking hate when you are walking and then your personal space is taken away by a bunch of retarded inferior congoids? Me too! So one if this dumbasses is called David, he's a ducking Jock and he finds himself the best, but guess what he's bottom shelf dirt. I hate this asshole so fucking god damn much.
REASONS WHY DAVID IS A SCUMBAG:
Don't you fucking hate when you are walking and then your personal space is taken away by a bunch of retarded inferior congoids? Me too! So one if this dumbasses is called David, he's a ducking Jock and he finds himself the best, but guess what he's bottom shelf dirt. I hate this asshole so fucking god damn much.
REASONS WHY DAVID IS A SCUMBAG:
- He fucking bullies me
- He is a jackass that mistreats everyone
- He has absolute zero intelligence
- He looks like god run out of shit to make him and he sent this fuck unfinished
This dude just walks into the hallways and thinks people should like him and respect him, but he doesn't even deserve fucking oxygen ! He thinks he is the next best since sliced bread!! I hate this bitch so fucking much, I wish I could go and fucking egg his house, thing is, he lives in the opposite side of the town.
His friends are also mindless dummies that follow him and do everything like him. Walking in the hallways and seeing David's little army of low IQ monkeys is never amusing because their only activity is to be insulting cunts! They also think they are the best because all they can do is listen to stupid synthesized pop music that has no meaning at all...
das ist alles
Friday, March 23, 2018
ACTIVISION, BO4, ETC...
Call of Duty, one of my favorite franchises. Throughout the years activison has been delivering good titles. My personal favorites, were WAW, BO1 and BO2. Unfortunately the quality of the games has been dropping through the last 5 years, which makes me believe that COD is entering the red ring of death.
Let's analyze the timeline:
From call of duty to call of duty 3 we see a similar type of game, yet a successful one. The games are set in world war 2, the plot is interesting, the graphics keep getting better.
2007
Here we have something different. Call of Duty 4 Modern Warfare is released. Unlike its predecessors cod4 is not set in ww2, but in a nearby future (2011). It was a different setting, but it still had success. People liked COD4, it was relatable ( which is something I'll later talk about later).
2008
COD WAW.
Treyarch brings us back to the ww2 setting. This time, after we finish the campaign we get a special survival mode: NAZI ZOMBIES. In this mode the player fights never ending waves of undead soldiers. It was refreshing and a success.
2009
CODMW2
2010
COD Black Ops
Once again, Treyarch brings another title. Here, the campaign is set in 1961 and told by Alex Mason's flashbacks. Here we also have the comeback of a character from WAW, Viktor Reznov. Treyarch kept the zombies mode, developing the background story. Personally, this cod had the best online multiplayer mechanics.
2011
COD MW3
Infinity ward brings us one of the most loved titles of the franchise. The multiplayer was also really good.
2012
COD BO2
Treyarch releases what is considered by lots of people the last good call of duty, Once again, the plot is set on a nearby future, where some parts of the campaign take place on some decades after the ending of bo1. The zombies mode is kept on, its storyline keeps getting bigger.
2013
COD Ghosts.
Now, this is the year that lots of cod players consider the year when activision fucked up. Infinity Ward had put lots of hope and excitement onto their fans, promising them a different game in the age of console transition instead of playing it safe and making cod mw4. So, this game has a totally different new setting , which doesn't feel like call of duty at all, the so called innovations are stupid jumps, a dog called riley, and fish that move when you approach them ( mario 64 already had that type of tech but okay...). The universe is an alternative one where there's a nuclear explosion in the middle east.
2014
COD advanced warfare
Here sledge hammer worked to bring another game that wasn't that much of an innovation. Basically we are in 2054 in some sort of futuristic korea war, exo stuff and flying jumps. Besides this campaign we have another modes like multiplayer, exo survival, exo zombies (don't even get me started on this one, it was just hilarious to see how much sledge hammer wanted to attract players by using a zombies mode that is similar to treyarch's).
2015
COD B03
Treyarch keeps the BO series releasing BO3 this time. FUTUREEEEE. The game is set between 2065 and 2070. Microtransactions and crazy retarded jumps that make no sense. Zombies are good, but in my opinion they're too focused on easter eggs and not on the surviving side of the mode.
2016
Infinite Warfare
THIS! THIS WAS INFINITE CANCER! THE YOUTUBE TRAILER HAS MORE THAN 3 MILLION DISLIKES! WELCOME TO CANCERLAND, HERE WE HAVE A BIG RANGE OF OPTIONS WHEN IT COMES TO EXOSUITS! OH YOU'RE A BAD PLAYER? PROBLEM SOLVED, HAND US YOUR MOM'S CREDIT CARD AND WE WILL TURN YOU INTO A STAR! OOOOOH ALL MIGHTY GOD YOU'RE SO TALENTED!!! TALENTED AT GIVING US YOUR MONEYYYYY!!!!
2017
COD ww2
Welp, I was expecting more from sledge hammer. They made a huge ass fuss with the promotion, it looked like " what we all have been waiting for since ghosts" turns out it's not a big deal. Basically they simply took advantage of how desperate most cod players were, trying to buy us with a nostalgia factor (ex: boots on the ground, nazi zombies ). I have accompanied the developing of ww2 since early 2017 , even before the " people's army" rumors. This game had a nice foundation I guess. The thing is lots of factors destroyed it: micro transactions, feminism, lack of consideration for the fans.
2018
COD BO4
still waiting for the official trailer in may, but tbh I think it'll suck. I think this the actual end of good cod games, what a shame, but oh well, all good things must end one day. I have a strange feeling nothing good will ever come again from the franchise.
Now, I will focus on what (in my opinion of course ) are the reasons why call of duty is coming to some sort of end.
FUTUREEEE
So, as most people can see we have been having futuristic call of duties over the last 3 years. Last year's call of duty was set in ww2 but that leads me to other conclusion. For the most part of the time, call of duty was either set in the past or in a nearby future, and that plays an important role, the fact that it was relatable, the players could minimally understand and relate to what was happening, what weapons were being used. This doesn't mean futuristic video games are bad, it just means that futuristic shit doesn't fit the concept of call of duty. People come and play call of duty for a certain type of game. When it changes completely, most probably will hate it. Call of duty were games that had a certain formula and besides the subtle changes, the game used to stick to it. What I am trying to say is that people buy call of duty for call of duty, not for some sort of halo.
THE NOSTALGIA FACTOR
I know I just complained about call of duty being all futuristic and stuff, and now I will complain about the ww2 factor. Since 2014 , cods have been set on the future, and in my opinion it is quite interesting that right after the release of infinite warfare, we get a call of duty called ww2. From my point of view, sledge hammer understood right away from advanced warfare that the audience would get tired of the future really quickly, so they decided to bring "what the players want" in order to get more buyers. And that's literally what they did, a game that was basically all the things players missed together. They used the nostalgia factor just to get more players and buyers.
MICROTRANSACTIONS
DLCS are minimally acceptable. But supply drops? That's just pure ridiculousness. I miss the good old black ops days when playing online multiplayer meant skill and not having parents that are okay with their kids spending shit tons of money on fucking imaginary guns. Besides that, all the loot box business has an important technique behind. This stupid thing takes advantage of how the human brain and addiction work. There are several studies about this , how to the brain gets more addicted to things it is not really certain about.
SJWS AND FEMINISM
How many black nazi women have you ever heard of? 0? Oh yeah that's because there never were any of those. Because of stupid offended dikes, it is possible to play as a black woman that happens to be on the german side of the battle. I like it when games are historically accurate. In the past I am pretty sure that no black women got to set their feet on the Wehrmacht!! Sledge hammer always goes like " we want to make sure everyone feels like it was them there" but I am pretty sure you wouldn't really be there in case you're black and a woman. I'm just so fucking tired of everyone getting offended. All the snowflakes fucking video games just because they can't handle the truth.
STUPID CENSORSHIP
I am also pretty sure that everyone recognizes the swastika as a nazi symbol even though it is Hindu. It was heavily used by the party so, in my opinion, it should be showcased in the games as well. Thing is, because of germany, we can't do such thing, due to their fucking censorship policy that sucks so god damn much!!! They thing that by making swastikas forbidden ( in video games, because video games are not considered a form of art ) they're gonna stop the growth of the amount of national socialists. What sucks is a game that is not historically accurate because of bullcrap.
i think that's all
M
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