going mc fucking crazy

That's simply it

why do we allow people that eat loud to live?

Hi

It's me your local angry boy. I am pissed. Like, people are so ooga booga that they don't understand that misophonia isn't a made up thing. Every day I have to pull a herculean effort to not murder my family, because they're always making god awful noise. They eat like fucking pigs with their mouths open, I have told them I really can't stand the noise they make, yet they smack their lips, small pieces of food flying off of their mouths, god awful gut wrenching growls escaping their filthy mouths. I can't, I simply can't cope with people that make retarded fucking noises. This article (supposedly you need a membership to see it, but i was on mobile and it worked just fine for free) by the wall street journal states that people with Misophonia have to shut their mouths and deal with it. Funny. Well, I think that people that are gross should simply be nerfed, are you an ape? Do you walk on four feet? Do you eat your own shit? No? Then act like a normal decent person and stop eating like a chimp. This goes for most of manners, if you are an overall gross person, please do us a favor and shoot yourself in the head, do not cause any regression to us, Homo Sapiens! The article tries to put the gross eater in a victim sort of situation. Maybe people are grossed by your primitive eating skills because they are something that is gross. Just mayhaps ye know?  Unlike his wife, or the writer of the article I won't indulge in euphemisms,no robbie boy (or any ape tbh), you're not a "chewer" you're an utterly disgusting parasite. You know, what annoys me isn't the noise itself, it's knowing that you are gross and do it, well aware that you could practice good manners and join the other citizens of the modern world. But no, you need to make a sewage orchestra off of your food hole. My grandma has missing teeth, so naturally, she doesn't annoy me, but all of you who have a full functioning body do not have a single excuse to be pure scum.

 Disgusting. Hope your eating manners lead you to choking : 3

Edit: I have a feeling some pussy wetawds will be triggered :3 so let me put some links that explain what misphonia is, once again I add, i am not angy owo at people that are unable to avoid making sounds : D It's almost as if, I didn't choose to have my brain wired this way : O 

https://www.webmd.com/mental-health/what-is-misophonia#1

https://www.medicalnewstoday.com/articles/320682

https://iocdf.org/expert-opinions/misophonia/

https://journals.lww.com/thehearingjournal/fulltext/2020/03000/misophonia__a_neurologic,_psychologic,_and.5.aspx

April fools

I'm an April's fool
the only one I'm fooling is me
pretending I know what I talk about
pretending to like stuff
pretending to have dreams
pretending to have roots
pretending to have a voice
pretending to have a personality
pretending i am not just a conception
pretending i am not an invention
pretending he hasn't taken over me

mordern day dating and whatever the hell people think makes sense

Hallo Wie gehtz
So, I was listening to negative xp's "girls are dumb" and I checked the comment section, and I saw lots of people were like, hella fucking pissed at women. Idk if my opinion is valid, because in their terms i am a normie I guess, I have had girlfriends, which makes me invalid for these internet monks. But I find the way these people think of women fucking gross. I don't know, some people will be like, stop simping bro, just because I am on women's side, but every time I see this type of shit I just think of my mom. She is an extremely sweet and intelligent person, a polyglot, beats me at any math issue that I can find, an extremely good debater! A person whose intellect is so cool, I love chatting with her about any topic because she does have a very bright mind and she knows what she talks about. And then I see people degrading each other to simple gender stereotypes. Not just men, women do it too.
I see men saying that all women are useless and dumb. That all of females are meant to be used. But that is like, so fucking weird. All my female friends are such cool people, with cool music tastes, with awesome hobbies and life goals, I can't look at them as objects, because they are not objects they are people. And maybe I think that way because my parents never re enforced gender stereotypes into me or my brother. I was never told that I should do X or Y cause I am a boy. I was just allowed to do whatever. I ended up being interested in things that are more "masculine", which is the norm for boys, but even if I hadn't it wouldn't matter. I was never told that men or women have roles in society, yeah women are the ones that give birth but besides that, in a world where physical strength is not the major  contributing force for society I think it is futile to reduce people to such things.
Now let's talk about dating. I see guys complaining about how they have to pay for dinner and invest so much money just to get laid. That itself is pathetic. Yes, women can be very materialistic fucks sake, but so can men. If you only see women as sex objects they will treat you as a wallet, it is only fair. Do you really expect a living being with a complex brain to do whatever you say and not want any sort of gratification back? Women want sex too, duh! But if you come into the picture just wanting sex, pretending to care about women just for their body, they will use you back. Women don't owe you sex, and you don't owe them money. You know why egirls make money off of incels? Cause they see them as objects and are so lonely and brain washed that they spend money on girls they'll never talk to irl to fill the big hole in their heart. I am not a fucking chad, I am not attractive by any means. But I have had girlfriends. Why? Because I never saw sex as god damned priority. Like, yeah I wanna get laid, but first I want to find someone that makes me fall in love, sex is a fucking bonus. I don't go out chasing for people to fuck. I meet people and have friendships, and sometimes I crush on them. If the feelings end up being mutual, then we hang out more, and yeah sex might happen. But that's not what I am in for. And I never feel obligated to pay for things, expensive dates or whatever. Love is a mutual thing, not a fucking deal. Sometimes I feel very happy making a bracelet or a necklace for the girl that I like, I feel so warm just thinking about how that can make her smile!
Maybe I don't know shit about dating, but perhaps I am just too european.

i'm gonna move to the bronx and i will be master clown

Wie Guetz
you fucking heard me
i made my choice, once this pandemic is over i am fucking leaving europe, my small town is not big enough for how big of a clown i am! i am gonna spread trickery and sperginess like a mc fucking plague!
i am moving to a small apartment, and i am gonna work in little italy. and have like a clown gig in my free time, my family says i am a good clown! yeah it's gonna work out so fucking well. i am gonna be everyone!! i will be legit every single human there is to be. i will flee!! i will be a fucking priest i will be a skater boy! i will be a god damned ghost buster!!! i will uncover all there is to uncover, i will know all the subway stops and all the spots to hide at! i will be nothing and everything and so little and such a big concept!! the concept of my identity is an allegory itself! fuck
if i can't have a personality of my own i will steal everybody else's. fucking write it down!!!

what is killing me

Hallo,
This is what is killing me:

• My dad always snapping his fucking fingers
• People eating and making noises as if they have some issue
• My mom only calling me to talk about her boyfriend
• My identity being split across the world and nowhere to be found
• My sudden lack of interest in everything that I once thought I enjoyed
• Not remembering my past
• Not knowing who my friends are
• Time passing through me
• Not being able to say what I actually think 
• Cigarettes
• Not knowing what I am 
• Not having a personality
• Not controlling my feelings or actions
• Not being able to know what I am thinking because it's too many people in my head
• Being a super hypocrite
• Judging others
• Me

I am so fucking tired of dinosaurs

Yeah, I said it, fuck retarded old people! I will never be one because I will blow my brains out before i am even 30, yeah it is edgy and cringy I don't care. I don't hate old people because they are old. I hate old people because they fail to accept that opinions aren't dogmatic. I am working so hard to avoid being like that, by always listening to people without being biased. My grandpa is always mocking me for being a polyglot. He is so fucking annoying. He is so fucking condescending, it makes me want to just scream boomer remover. My grandpa makes fun of me for speaking multiple languages, IMAGINE! While most people would be happy that their children have that skill, my grandpa makes actual fun of me. He says that I shouldn't speak 'foreign'. I swear to every fucking thing, why do old people get surprised at people my age for disliking them?? They act entitled, they ruined the economy and fucked the environment, they're mostly homophobic, xenophobic, racist, etc... you fucking name it... And it's so fucking annoying! I think that this is a thing that won't happen a lot more with upcoming old people, and future oldies, but old people say that everything was literally better in their time, which is so fucking bullshit. Yeah, I do miss the days when I was a little kid, but I have to admit those are just nostalgia goggles. But for old people it is an empiric truth that anything my generation makes is bad and wrong and it sucks! I can't grasp it. I fucking can't. They think they are so much smarter. My grandparents didn't even go to school and they call me and my parents dumb. IMAGINE THE FUCKING ENTITLEMENT. I'm not the brightest, I know that for a fucking fact.
Three days ago, my grandpa who is a fat ass hypocrite sat on his ass and made fun of women on the TV that weren't even chubby, they had a perfectly normal healthy size. He shamed them for being "fat". And if I were to ask him something along the lines of "if they are fat does that make you a land whale?" I bet I'd be scrutinized and grounded by my family. But since he is old he's apparently not guilty of being a sexist racist retard. I hate saying this type of shit because people will think of me as an sjw, but it is the damn truth!! There isn't one time he doesn't make fun of immigrants, (i was a god damned immigrant, my existence is the product of immigration!), people of color, LGBT people and women. That's all he does. And they're not like light jokes. He is like insulting on purpose. He saw the transvestite parade for the Carnival on TV and started spewing hate about how it is so wrong to wear women's clothes. When I call him out I get called sensitive. I think I am like one of the least sensitive people out there, my sense of humor is quite dark and lots of people I know consider it "offensive". But my grandpa, he is not even trying to joke, he is being fucking racist and hypocritical.
Nothing I ever do will change fossils, the only way of getting rid of fossils is by throwing them away!